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=AilynnStarlight

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Hello! I'm Ailynn, and thanks for visiting my page! :meow:




Sorry if this is weird, but I'm a Christian who is also a married "bi-gendered" man. My sense of gender is always in a state of flux, and has been that way in secret since I was about 14 years old. Over the past few months, my sense of gender has started leaning VERY heavily toward my feminine side, and only seems to grow that way more and more everyday. I'm now slowly coming out to people in my real life, and everyone has been awesome and supportive! What I used to hide in shame, I now embrace and thank God for giving me people in my life who understand and accept me!


I'd like to now say a prayer for everyone out there:



~ Dear kind and loving heavenly Father: Thank you for helping me. Thank you for changing my life and pulling me out of the darkness I was in for so long. Please Lord...help all those out there in a similar situation...help them find understanding and acceptance by those they love...as well as acceptance within themselves. As this world darkens more and more everyday, Lord please help everyone reach out to the light that is your unending love and grace...even though we don't deserve your love, you still see each one of us as your precious child and hold out your hand to each and every one of us, no matter what we've done in our lives! Please God...reach down to those in need...change and bring beauty to their lives just as you have mine this year! We need your guiding hand. Thank you Lord Jesus! :pray:


I love each and every one of you! You are all so beautiful and special, and I pray that you reach the happiness you are longing for! God bless you! :huggle:


"It is good for me to draw near to God; I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all Your works."

- PSALMS 73:28


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One thing that makes me so happy about having decided to use the name "Ailynn" for my feminine side is this: I had already created that name over 12 years ago or so...and my wife when she was a bit younger and going through a tough time with an abusive relationship, looked up in the sky and saw a halo around the moon. She prayed to God that she would meet someone who would fall in love with her and treat her with kindness and respect. Well, we both only just found out about a month ago that there is a Turkish name "Aylin" that means "halo around the moon." I thought that was amazing! :love:

Thanks again for coming by, and I hope you have a blessed day! :huggle:


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HOW DO I PRONOUNCE MY NAME?

• "A" - as in "cake" or "way"
• "Lynn" - rhymes with "win"
• "A-Lynn", but no pause after the "A"

= "Ailynn" ^_^

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My voiceover tryouts for Ugovaria's upcoming cartoon project. :meow:



- Mako's "The Hyde Syndrome" art contest. My submission starts at 12:45 and lasts until the end of the video.



- An inspirational song that lifts me up when I'm feeling down. It's about the hardships we all go through in life, and that these things will pass...our pain will heal, and how we are never alone through it all.
This whole album is amazing. :love:





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Wasn't this stuff supposed to HELP?

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 29, 2012, 11:14 AM
Hey all you awesome people. I know many of you are going through some very difficult times right now, and I want you to know that I'm keeping you all in prayers and good wishes. I want you to know that you all mean so much to me, and I hope for each of you to realize your dreams and make the most out of life and live so happily...each one of you having your own fairy tale ending. :meow:

I also humbly ask that you guys all keep me in your prayers as well if you don't mind.


I've recently started my very first anti-depression medication...which admittedly I should have started a long time ago. It's a relatively low dosage: generic Zoloft 50mg (Sertraline). I've heard that the first couple of weeks may be rough, but then things should start getting better. It's hard to know if the drug is actually working for me or not. I suppose now, I don't drop through the floor in horrible depression, so in a way that's an improvement. However, I've started feeling a strange numbness toward things...like, I don't enjoy things as much or ever feel as happy as I did before taking it. It's like I'm stuck in the middle between happy and sad at all times. To top that off, where before I would have severe anxiety if suicidal thoughts entered my head...now it just seems like it would be...so easy. Like, I could be feeling happy and yet I could kill myself and I'd be fine with it.


This is not me. I'm not like this, and it scares me a little.


I see my therapist again next week, so I'm definitely going to be speaking with her about this. I've also missed so much work and am now so backed up on bills it's completely ridiculous. I've seriously missed a month of work in a row.

I'm amazed I haven't been fired yet.


Just, pray for me if you don't mind. Love you guys, and I hope you have a blessed day. :huggle:




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  • Mood: Worried
  • Listening to: Flyleaf
  • Reading: The Bible, Locke & Key
  • Watching: The Librarians
  • Playing: Street Fighter x Tekken (Xbox 360)
  • Eating: Poached chicken with rice
  • Drinking: Water, Cherry Pepsi
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=AilynnStarlight
Ailynn Starlight
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United States
Completely Bored? Like reading personal information about random strangers? Well, step right this way for some random useless facts about me!

- Fair skin with freckles. Tanning just doesn't work for me >_<
- Dark brown hair, with occasional red highlights and tangles
- Blue eyes. Oh, and quite myopic, I might add...
- Gender-confused. I like women so much, I wanna be one too!
- Kinda feminist...or at least, I sympathize heavily for women
- I'm way too curious about anything new for my own good
- Capricious! My mood changes are probably weird for others
- I'm usually silly to the point of near-ditziness, but...
- I also sometimes get sad, depressed, and self-depreciating
- I'm helplessly geeky. I can't stop loving pointless things!
- I've always loved cosplay and Halloween...dressing up is fun!
- I'm married to the most beautiful, kind, and understanding girl that I've ever known to exist! She accepts me for who I am, physically and emotionally; both male and female. She is my dreamgirl and I'll always love her!!! :heart:

:bulletgreen: - XBox GamerTag: AilynnStarlight
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Current Residence: Oak Ridge, TN
Print preference: Kitten paw prints =^_^=
Favourite genre of music: Christian, hard rock, electronica / dubstep
Favourite style of art: I like any style, but my favorite is the adorable artstyle of my wife! ^_^
Operating System: Mac OS X - 10.5.8
MP3 player of choice: My computer is the only thing I have >_<
Shell of choice: Seashells by the beach
Wallpaper of choice: Random shifting nature or beach scenes
Skin of choice: My wife's perfect skin ^_^
Favourite cartoon character: Uzumaki Naruto
Personal Quote: "I hope that one day we can all fully understand one another."
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WHAT I BELIEVE IN:

I BELIEVE IN THE HOLY TRINITY:


:heart: God the Father: The infinite and all-knowing creator of the universe and all things.

:heart: God the Son: Jesus Christ, who died on the cross to absolve us from our sins if we trust in Him as our Savior...who then arose on the 3rd day and ascended into Heaven. Sin can not be in the presence of God the Father, and it must be punished...so Jesus Christ took it all upon Himself and died to pay for our sins. Any who truly ask for forgiveness of their sins, turn away from sin to the very best of our ability, and ask Jesus to save them from that burden and certain death because of our sin...they will be saved and can live with God forever in heaven when they die.

:heart: God the Holy Spirit: "The Holy Ghost", which is the spirit of God that resides with us and comforts us. The intense feeling of the love of God is incredibly powerful!



Even though I am a Christian, I can't stand the stereotype that's become associated with Christianity these days: that of the angry, hateful, close-minded, and self-righteous judge of others. That is NOT the way of Jesus! Jesus preaches love to ALL people, and that is how we are supposed to be as well. None of us are worthy of judging someone else, for we are all sinners...and all sin is equal in the eyes of God.

I hope and pray that someday soon everyone will finally look past their differences and see that we are all equal brothers and sisters, and that we should all truly love one another. We should treat others as we would want to be treated ourselves: with compassion, acceptance, and understanding.


"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." - John 3:16


:heart: GOD BLESS YOU my friend! :heart:
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Journal History

What is your gender identity? 

31%
50 deviants said I was born physically male, and identify as male.
29%
47 deviants said I was born physically male, but identify as female.
20%
32 deviants said I was born male, but I identify with both genders. (Bi-gender)
11%
17 deviants said I was born physically female, and identify as female.
3%
5 deviants said I was born male, but feel I am genderless.
3%
4 deviants said I was born physically female, but identify as male.
2%
3 deviants said I was born female, but I identify with both genders. (Bi-gender)
1%
2 deviants said I was born female, but feel I am genderless.
0%
No deviants said I was born intersexed, and I have both male and female genitalia.
0%
No deviants said I was born genderless. I have absolutely NO genitalia. Yippee!
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~demonshadow3 4 days ago  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank You For The :llama: :D

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~TG57570TF 4 days ago
I love your art ! more TG please ;)

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TG and TF
See my art, I make TG
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~Soldatoflife 4 days ago
I thank you for the watch! As for writing, I'm probably going to do so throughout the week when I have some time and not get sucked into a certain mainstream recently released PC game...^^

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Mood: Cheerful ~ChristineIsDEAD 6 days ago
Congratulations Ailynn! Great love, refreshed mind and a new job!

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From beasts we scorn as soulless,
In forest, field and den,
The cry goes up to witness
The soullessness of men.

:tombstone: "... And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference."
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~Gul0Gul0 6 days ago
Nice gallery. =) I'm not that big of a fan of religion and most religious people, but you seem like a nice girl/guy.
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